I have a list of “don’t wants” a mile long…
– Like ministry (and shoes), I don’t want to copy someone’s style or cram into a fit not mine.
– I don’t want to wander through life wondering if I got it right.
– I don’t want to suffer in silence…or see others do the same.
– I don’t want injustice to win.
– I don’t want to keep repeating dumb mistakes when “a clue” is an option worth taking.
– I don’t want to keep my mouth shut when I’m called to speak up.
– I don’t want to consider my silence a sign of weakness when wisdom whispers a better response.
– I don’t want to limit God by my self-made limitations.
– I don’t want my painful past used as a predictor in choosing a dead-end future.
– I don’t want my failures to turn into reasons not to persevere.
– I don’t want fears — real or perceived — managing my world.
– I don’t want to waste a minute of precious time.
– I don’t want to stop encouraging, loving, living, learning and laughing (laughing is my Achilles’ heel).
– I don’t want to forget why I was created.
– I don’t want to forget what a beautiful creation I am.
– I don’t want to crumble under opposition or crack under pressure.
– I don’t want to travel down Easy Street.
– I don’t want to keep imitating the Energizer bunny when my internal batteries are drained.
– I don’t want to imagine a life without purpose.
– I don’t want hard work without balance.
– I don’t want relationships without empathy.
– I don’t want community without investment.
– I don’t want judgment without mercy.
– I don’t want to die without sharing the glorious gift of the gospel.
– I don’t want to end up away from God’s “You Are Here” mark.
– And I don’t want to disappoint God.
That last one keeps me in a constant state of vigilance. I know my Savior loves me. He loves us all. He proved His great love in service and in sacrifice (John 3:16). I know I don’t deserve such love, but when you lose yourself to His love, you don’t want to disappoint the object of your affection. You cherish the same things, desire the same outcomes, want the same hope and future for yourself and those around you. Your wants meld into beauty you never thought possible like the vibrant colors bursting from a field of wildflowers.
My wants just bloom from different buds, that’s all.
So, what don’t you want?